Havent been doing much these few weeks beside studying and revising, of course. The amount of time that I have in my hands is amazingly much that I have time to think about a lot of things, sometimes I feel , those are the things that I never would think of. Ever.

Spending time thinking does not do much good. It’s a waste if I think of something good but I don’t carry them out. It’s an even bigger waste when I think of something bad and then it exaggerates to daydreaming.

But today’s thinking episode was a bit different. I suddenly thought of what I have been doing for this past year. And after that, I managed to dig up 2 pieces of paper that contained a list of my Ma’al Hijrah’s Resolutions. After reading and thinking for abit more, I wanted to cry, laugh, sigh all at once.

Allow me to share some share-able pointers from the long list of them exactly as written from myself for myself on January 4^th, 2009.

• Be more sopan with my speech and Use “saya and awak “ for Malays or “I and you” depending on people instead of “kau and aku” HAHAHAAA.
• Don’t procrastinate, you bugger.! - Memang patut digelar bugger.
• Learn how to sew and cook – This one definitely fail.
• Pray on time – Alhamdulillah.
• Make each day better than the previous – =(
• Find a new job – essential.! – Aper mau kerjer =).

It is said that manusia hanya mampu merancang dan Allah akan menentukannya. There are so many things I have planned for myself earlier in the year, but Allah has better plans for me, I guess. And I have to work my way much much harder. Judging to evaluate is easy, but to work on after evaluation isn’t.

Now ive realized the muhasabah’s got to get going consistently. If not, i’ll just lose my way.

Faraidh is calling me for revision. I better go.

Essence and Nature of Allah - Özgür

We have limited sight: we can see only five out of a million objects with naked eyes. Our hearing capability is also limited to sounds in the frequency range 20 to 20,000 hertz. Our sight and sound perceptions are very narrow. Ironically, often we do not see these limitations and ask, "Why can Allah not be seen? What is He made of?"

It is actually very disrespectful to ask such questions because we are trying to imagine Him with a narrow perception. We should look at ourselves at first and see who we are and how much we know before we can know and understand Him. Allah is far away from any limited quantity and quality. He is the supreme being which cannot be quantitated and qualitied with deficient human imagination and limited measures. If we could go a trillion years far away with light speed and observe the universe, all we could see might be no more than a microscopic object in comparison to Allah's existence. How can we comprehend Allah's essence and nature when we hardly know our own Antarctica continent. Allah is holy and pure in every aspect. Allah (SWT) is totally different from all what He created, both visible and invisible. Also, He is beyond our limited imagination, sight and hearing.

Allah's existence is unlimited, infinite. So, limited human beings cannot imagine Allah. Theologians say : "Whatever comes in your mind, it is not Allah." Islamic mystics say: "Whatever comes to your mind, Allah is far far beyond your conceptions. And you are always in a closed jar with your surroundings." Descartes says: "Humans are limited. The limited one cannot think about the limitless one." The German writer Goethe described the entity Allah as, "O The Unknown Existence! They glorify You Your one thousand and one names. I wouldn't be able to glorify You even with Your thousands of names because You are above all exaltations!"

Philosophers explain Allah's existence as an unimaginable entity. Allah is not a thing that humans can know and grasp. Eyes cannot see Him; ears cannot hear Him. So, we have to believe what Allah's messengers brought to us from Him. How can Allah be known? He is the alpha and omega. He is the source of reason and of knowledge. Our existence is a shadow of Allah's light. Our knowledge is a drop from His unimaginable knowledge. Yes, at some level there is a way to know Allah. However, this way is totally different than the way we know the material world. People who are trying to understand Him in the wrong way are ones who couldn't break their egos, and couldn't reach their deep down insight.Unfortunate people who say "I looked for Allah and couldn't find Him." Then they unveil their deviation from believing in Allah in the name of science and philosophy.

Allah is Allah, and He shows us the necessity of his existence in our hearts and souls. He touches in the deepest points of our souls with His existence. These feelings which he gives us are at the root of our knowledge and are stronger than our limited knowledge, imagination, thinking and intelligence. However, many times as humans we depart from these feelings and make mistakes, and fall from grace.

The universe has thousands of tongues and ways for us to remember Him. The Qur'an is an eloquent reminder. The prophet Muhammad (pbuh) is an excellent announcer of Him.

Anadolu

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Essence in the concept of love is even more interesting.

Essence as defined by w i k i p e d i a;
Essence is the attribute or set of attributes that make an object or substance what it fundamentally is, and which it has by necessity, and without which it loses its identity.

There are countless defintions of True Love out  there, everyone has different definitions of it. Or so they think they can give a personal customised meaning to True Love.

But i think we all know that that there is only ONE type True Love and that belongs to the inconceivable Creator. He is the only one able to love us in our essence and does so because He knows our essence.

And why not, He created us.! Even we dont have the capability to understand ourselves what more trying to understand something else that has such infinite complexity. We could receive that capacity to understand though, only when we want it and in the will of Allah, of course.

Point is (i hope i express this correctly), if u dont know the essence of smthing, ur love for that something can never last.

That is why humans are always in and out of love, because they dont understand the essence of the object that they love. Actually, more correctly put as the object they think they love bcos they are ignorant of the definition of True Love, remember.?.

So, jangan nak memandai post kat world-wide-web dengan tiada malu langsung: "My true love, (nama orang)..". Hamba geli tahap maksima. Dont understand, dont talk please.

Para pembaca faham tak aper post hamba ini.?
Aaaaahhh, nevermind.
For me to ponder and for u to find out.

ps: I've lost touch with writing (its pretty obvious) and hamba tgh buntu sangat doa2 para pembaca. Serious punyer.




 

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Belief puts meaningful value to them.

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